I've decided when I die...

I would like a big huge party! No big long drawn out service...and no graveside watching the casket go into the ground. That is too hard!

Rhoda's funeral was today. I've been really good, emotionally speaking, and only got choked up when looking around at her family's grief. I feel bad for them because some of them didn't take the time or effort to see her as much as they could have...I, on the other hand, got to be with her everyday.

I'm a part of a video game community for older gamers...and someone posted in their blog this:

"Courage is fear that said it's prayers."

I really like that. I know that Fear isn't something we want to have in our lives...and we must do what we can to keep ourselves from fearing...I think one of the best ways we do that is to say our prayers.

I have been afraid in the past couple of weeks...it's a hard thing to have/exercise faith, especially when you realize the only things you have control over aren't the things you WANT control over.

So...to all of you who are examples to me, everyday, of courage...Thank you for being you, and doing what you can with what you're given...you are incredible examples to me, and I'm grateful for you!